damn my brain

Today I realized that things aren't coming to me as easily as i thought they were. which really sux, because now i have to put more effort in than before- i'm not used to music not being easy for me... i'm talking fundamentals of musicianship. it's eartraining for those of you who aren't music people (most of you, i think) which means that I have to be able to recognize an interval by hearing it and i have to be able to sing an interval on commmand... which was getting easy until this morning when i completely lost all ability to construct sound in my head. I felt like a deaf person (i mean i could hear, but i couldnt make up sounds in my head)- really scary!


and i remembered yesterday that i have a music theory test on monday on everything we've learned so far- that's like 6 chapters- a good deal of it builds on itself, so things in the beginning I'll remember fine because i have to use them every time i write music, but the later stuff i'm thinkin i'll forget. tomorrow i have a quiz in paino class on a piece of music that i forgot to look at until today, it's a good thing that Tammy's class is ahead of mine and i helped her practice it or i wouldn't have ever looked at it and then who knows what would happen tomorrow.


then there's my voice lessons, ah! off to a rocky start and then when that got smoothed over, now i'm having issues being able to read music- well im having mostly rhythmic problems, but that's annoying... i've had rhythm problems all my life and now i have to overcome that... God help me with this. if i want this to be my career, no, my life, i'm really going to have to learn to count the damn music!! ACK!!! ok, i feel better now. what's more is that i'm getting a soar thoat for no good reason, i just woke up with it this morning, coughing and i could not swallow... it was like 6:20 am. good thing my roommate was up anyway cause she was studying for perspectives class. i coulndt just try to go back to sleep, so i used listerine, which helped to the extent that i could swallow again and drank some water to stop the coughing so i could finally go back to sleep.

yeah, today was eventful... but its still not over- i still have to read that essay to do the homework for expos (but i have till friday, so its ok), i still have to drop music off in the my accompanist's mailbox in the music building, i still have to go to the gym, and i desperately need to eat something.
my head hurts.