recovery

so i asked C how she was dealing with homesickness cause i know she doesnt get to go home ever because she's 6 hours away... she said it helped her to just do stuff like take random walks to nowhere- thats how she found llhamas!!! so i decided to take her advice and ask my friend tammy if she would be adventurous with me and take a walk to nowhere. she agreed that we would go. and we did. after we went to college ave to get us some Fat Beaches- which used to be called Fat Bitches until some politically correct people complained. My heathly-eating stomach was like, "whoa, that's a lot of yummy greasy food, ur gonna be soooo sorry." well i'm not really sorry, but my stomach does disagree with me a bit right now. anyway, we didn't find nowhere, but we plan to find it next tuesday and we are going to travel across the river to find it... well maybe we will just look for the panera and the applebees and the walmart... but that's in the middle of nowhere so its close enough... maybe we should bring a map just in case we really end up in nowhere. lol... so yeah, i am in a really good mood right now. i hope this lasts me until i get home. i mean i will still go to the councelor just in case, but i have a good feeling about this. i dont hate my existence here now... random fluke of personality i guess. i hope that doesnt happen too often cause i hate crying, especially 10 times a day, makes for really stuffy sinuses and a bad headache and i just hate to feel so depressed. not that anyone likes it really, but in that case, everyone should know exactly how i feel. well i should shower so i can get to bed soon cause i am really tired for no really good reason plus i have to be up at 8ish tomorrow... gnight all. I love all u guys! thanks so much C!!!