well, this whole life thing is killing me recently... yes, i mean mellowdrama. It's hard to help someone figure out what they want and then help them to make a decision based on that when all they can tell you is, "I don't know." and then when all is said and done, im not sure that i really helped at all or if i just confused them even more than they were to begin with because of everything that i asked them to think about before deciding. plus, since i kept thinking about my situation that seemed similar i wasnt sure i was staying in the moment and in the other person's issue which just means more confusion... and then i helped myself figure out what i need to do too, but now i dont want to do it... or if i really have to do it that way at all... i have to find out the truth first before deciding that i'm done with it.
yeah i know, im being vague, but i had to rant without including names or specific events, etc... if u really want to know, IM me and maybe i'll tell you, maybe i won't, depends on my mood, really.
ok, now the last time i wrote, i said that i always want to be here, well that's not entirely true- i caught myself feeling like "i want to go home already" as soon as I got to school this evening. dammit. I want to just be comfortable with this whole living on my own thing... it'll come, i'll get there, eventually.
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