so it's true

as much as I'd like to deny that i'm just like all those people I knew in HS who were in therapy and angsty-like with the lack of real problems and all that stuff that I didn't want to deal with, I cant. I dont have real problems either, but I'm missing something in my head that makes ppl able to deal with living. Every time I am in school I feel messed up like there's something missing here- I mean this is what I've wanted all my life- what the hell is wrong with me? Here's something I found myself making up and singing to myself in the shower and it gave me a little insight:


"All I want is to feel a little more
like I've something worth living for
but it's not fair for me to say my life's incomplete
when I've got everything
everything I could want,
I could need
I'm even following my dream
and it'd be a lie to say
I can fix myself
cause it's been too many years
that I've felt this way
I'm tired of hiding my tears.
it's time to put my mask on the shelf
and let someone else in"


and it's all true... I have everything I could want and need and all that jazz, but I am feeling so damn incomplete emotionally.