Turns out I really was crazy

So last time that I wrote, I has just started out with Coastal Vacations, right? And I said that I must be crazy for doing it- turns out that I really am pretty crazy because I have made no profit form it yet- in fact I am quite in the hole with it. Not to say that Coastal is not a viable business- I'm just not a sales person. So I have wasted a lot of time and energy into something that did not pan out. I even created a new website that is more user friendly than the one that travel makes you happy gave me. That alone has taken hundreds of hours of my time over the last few months.

I can't really say this is the first time I have done that- only this is the first time I've done it with money. I guess this is really a judgment of my character- I am quick to jump into something, waste a lot of time and energy on it and then still be in the gray area for a long time before ultimately giving up. I can't really say I am proud of that fact of my personality- but I just do not have to perseverance to keep trying and trying at something that is not paying me back. It's quite sad that I wasted so much time and energy, but also even sadder that I wasted my credit cards on it. I wish that I knew what I was getting myself into before I decided to jump in head first with all my clothes still on.

On another note, I have completed yet another 4.0 semester at Mason Gross. I have officially completed my Junior year of college. How weird- I am a senior in College! I can't get over how that sounds. God, I am going to be entering the real world in a year. It's a scary thought. I look forward to it though. As scary as it is, I am actually quite excited about the idea that I am going to be student teaching in less than a year and then a few months after that I will be teaching for real! I will finally be an independent adult. I guess this means I will have to look for a place to live because I do not think I would be able to live with my Mother once I get a teaching job. It would be way too weird. By then Gordon should have his own place and maybe we can talk about moving in together. I can't wait for that the most I think. I really have found someone special. In 24 days it will be our 2 year anniversary! Wow, I really don't have much time to figure out what I'm going to get him. But what can I give to a guy who has pretty much everything he wants/needs, especially what can I give him that I can afford to give him. If I were not in debt, I would look into getting the PS3 for him but that's a couple hundred dollars that I do not have. I have no idea what I should get him... I'll have to look stuff up on the internet maybe... maybe that's not a great idea. You'd think that I don't know him if I don't know what to get him- but I never was very good at figuring out gift ideas for even my sisters who I am the closest to in this world. Good luck to me figuring this out.